Most Memorable Moments
1. Skiing in bikini
My most memorable moment of 2017 is without doubt when me and four of my best friends were in Branäs, a Swedish ski resort, over the easter break. We were in the sauna of our cabin and got a bit hot (obviously, considering we were in a sauna), so we went outside to get some fresh air. The ski slopes had closed and were obviously empty. Suddenly someone realises that we are standing outside in bikinis right next to our skiing equipment about a hundred meters from one of the slopes and breaks the genius idea of that we should go skiing in bikinis. How do you say no to that? You do not. So that was what we did: we went skiing in bikinis.
2. Vera trying to knock out a lamp with an inflatable mattress
My friend Vera is amazing in every way, but sometimes her actions can be rightfully questioned… One of those times was when we were on a class trip to Stockholm and were about to go to bed. All of the girls from our class were going to sleep in a classroom in a school up there and had laid out our inflatable mattresses on the floor. When we turn off the lights all lamps go out except for the one above mine, Vera’s and Andrea’s spots. After not finding any other switches in the room, I, a rationally thinking human being, goes to find a teacher who could help solve the problem. When I had done so, the teacher and I returned to the classroom only to find Vera standing with Andrea’s mattress in the air trying to hit the lamp hard enough for it to go out. She did not succeed with anything other than getting dust in my bed, but it is probably something I will never get to see again… (Then, on the other hand, you never know with Vera).
3. A few other things I cannot mention here at this date… 😉
Achievements I Am Truly Proud Of
1. Surviving a week alone in Valladolid
This spring I got a scholarship to study Spanish at a language school in Valladolid, a small town where no one speaks anything but Spanish. In other words: the ideal place to properly learn the language. It was the first time I travelled anywhere alone, which itself was scary enough, but furthermore I had to stay with a host family (I originally booked a room in a student residence but, since I was not 18, I was not allowed to stay there) which was an extremely uncomfortable situation for me. Even if I can make myself somewhat understood in Spanish it was really hard to get to know the lady I was staying with and I did not have time to figure out what was okay to do in her house and so forth. I had to live on someone else’s conditions, conditions I did not know of.
That place made me so anxious that I suffered through panic attacks when I thought about going there after class. I sat in this park, El Campo Grande, for hours only to avoid going “home”. Eventually I had to anyway, but only to eat and sleep when I planned it right. I cried all the time whilst constantly keeping count of the hours left until I could finally go home. But, I survived. I did not give up. I developed my Spanish skills significantly. I learned how to deal with an uncomfortable situation. I met people from other countries. I got to see a new place. If I would get the question today, knowing how much I would suffer during that week, I would not have said yes. But I am still extremely thankful for having experienced all of this. I came back to Sweden as a new, much stronger, self.
2. Starting my recovery
As late as two weeks ago, I acknowledged that I have an eating disorder and sought professional help. Most of my loved ones know about it by now, which I still have mixed feelings about, but I am tired of lying about being fine. I should not have to do that. Disordered eating is a serious problem which, despite what I tell myself, will not go away just because I hide it away. It is still hard to talk about in real life which is why I want to ask my acquaintances reading this to not bring it up with me unless I show interest in having the conversation. However, I am incredibly proud of the fact that I have started my recovery.
3. Coming as far with Originally My as I have
I am so proud of the work I have done with Originally My this year that words can barely describe it. In my opinion, this is now a professional website; it is what I wanted it to be when I first started last year. That I do not attract a lot of traffic does not bother me. I know that what I do here is good and that some of my posts are really valuable, to me and others, which is enough for now. Do I wish to have more readers in the future? Yes. Is that why I continue to put time and effort into my posts? No. I am doing this for me and that is probably why I still update regularly. But, to the few people reading my posts: thank you for spending your time on reading my work. It means a lot.
4. Getting A’s in all of my finished courses
I would be lying if I would claim that I am not proud of getting the highest possible grade in all of the courses I have finished this year. That truly is an accomplishment and I will not tip toe around that just because Swedish culture tells me to. Note: In Sweden, one is not allowed to brag about anything, think one is better than average or deserving of something the next person is not.
5. Becoming a member of Mensa
Another achievement where it might seem like I am bragging about my intellect, but this is something that I am extremely proud of and could not leave of the list. I did an IQ-test a few weeks ago and got a result that qualifies me to become a member of Mensa, an organisation for the most intelligent (solely based on IQ) people in the world. To become a member you have to have an IQ of at least 131 on the Wechsler scale which is only attained by two percent of the population. My result ranked me amongst the highest one percent, which was not something I expected at all which makes me even prouder of the achievement.
6. Finally learning to do my brows
This year has been the year I finally understood how to properly do my eyebrows. It has been a long and bumpy road, but here we are. This achievement is not exactly comparable with the others I have listed but it sure was about time I achieved it.
3. My outfit from my grandmother’s seventieth birthday
Posts that I am most proud of
1. Märta leaving
My dear wonderful friend Märta is in the US at the moment, living the life of an exchange student. I am glad on her behalf for daring to experience this, I am actually quite proud of her for doing it, but I would much rather have kept her in Sweden. She is one of my absolute closest friends and having to say goodbye to her was truly heartbreaking. One of the worst moments of 2017, actually.
2. Realising I needed help
The night before I first talked to my school nurse about my eating disorder I was a complete mess. I was scared of how much damage I had caused myself already, what people were going to think about me and how they were going to treat me once they found out… The last thing I wanted was to admit to myself and others that I had a problem that I needed help with, but at the same time that was the only way out. It was an all time low for me.
3. First night in Valladolid
I feel like I have talked enough about my experience in Valladolid already, so if you just read the first point of the list of achievements I am truly proud of you will probably understand why my first night on that trip is listed as one of the worst moments of the past year.
4. Märta & Vera making me eat sushi for the first time
On a less serious, but just as traumatising, note… My so called friends made me try sushi last spring and I have not gotten over it yet. That roll is the most disgusting thing I have put in my mouth, with no exceptions what so ever. Then, Vera has admitted that she gave me one of the least tasty pieces (which is really stupid if you are trying to prove that sushi is delicious, right?)… Ugh.
Things I Regret
1. A night with too much vodka
This night is one of the worst things I have ever put myself through. Me and my friends were invited to this big party a girl at our school was having. It was the first big party most of us had gone to and we were all very excited. We arrived quite late and had not been drinking anything in advance, whilst most other people there were completely wasted. Young and stupid as sixteen-year-olds are, we “had to” catch up. I poured about two deciliters of pure vodka down my throat (do not try this at home) and that is about everything I remember clearly from that night before I look up and see a policeman talk to my parents who did not know I had started to drink. The next day was not a lot of fun.
2. Something else I cannot write here (but it exists…)
What I wish for next year
- Better mental health
- Continued development of Originally My
- To start a podcast with a certain someone
- Perhaps start a youtube channel
- To write more
- To do something with my music
- Lots of new experiences!
I hope you have had a wonderful, or at least educational, year that you can look back on and be somewhat happy with what you have done of your time. Only you can determine the value of your 2017, even if that is easy to forget when hearing about all of the great things other people have accomplished and experienced. Just remember that surviving is enough of an accomplishment. Congratulations. Stay original, gorgeous! xoxo